Okay, here we go, lets open a few dusty doors in my life. Girlfriend for sophomore, junior, and senior years in high school, we were going out and trying to decide which ring to buy. Then over a 2 week period, she withdrew farther and farther away, until finally she called the whole thing off without an explaination. Apparrently, it didn't destroy her like it did me, she starting dating a guy that was 12 years her senior, whom she worked with I might add (red flag!), but it killed me. I got something good out of the deal. I started really hitting the gym hard (I'd started and lettered in baseball and football in high school, so its not like I started out in horrible shape) and lost 35lbs over the summer (which I've kept off for 5 years now
still a hefty 170). Anyway, it destroyed me and I thought I'd never heal from that experience.
Well, here I am 5 years later, graduating with a masters in electrical engineering in a few months, extremely happy since I've been engaged to the woman I love for 2 years (dating for 4 - though I did screw up a lot of relationships during the interim between the 2), planning out the rest of my life. What's the ex doing you ask? Well, as of the last time I heard (about a year ago), she was the housewife of the older guy (her modelling career just didn't take with him - though she would have been good at it) with 2 kids. I actually hope she is happy, but from the exterior . . .
You think that you'll never forget, that this will be something you take with you for the rest of your life, but that's partially wrong. You take the experience and it changes you, usually without you knowing it. But the specifics, the pain now, the memories, they fade after they've done their work. I tried to remember her phone number, the way to her house, hell I tried to remember what she looked like after I read this thread, and it just didn't happen.
Moral of the story, you'll feel like hell for a while. Weeks, months even. But in the long run, you'll pull something that will change you for the better from this, no matter how improbable that sounds right now.
C-ya