Talking to the two above me, you sirs, are scum, and sum up the
reasons people like you are still banned from such a good
channel.
That was exactly the problem with Eagle, too. Well, one of many problems. I was a "person like me" instead of a person to him. Because I was friends with LOAF and Chris and a bunch of other intelligent and kind people (friendships that continue to this day), I was removed from the channel without a word. Forgive me if I don't shed a tear at his death; in so far as I can tell, it was overdue.
So when I say I didn't know Eagle-1, it wasn't for lack of trying. I was a young, excited kid who loved Wing Commander and the internet and finally meeting people with the same interests I had. I'm sure I was annoying: the old gang digs out logs every once in a while that proves it... but like everyone else here I didn't deserve to be removed from existence because of an old man's jealousy.
As a result, I'll tell you who I did know: LOAF. He's one of my best friends and is one of the nicest guys in the world. He's exactly none of the things Eagle pretended to be. He's not my dad, he's not some flawless superman who will pretend he never makes mistakes... he's just a good guy. We've had some amazing adventures over the years, which I guess is thanks to Eagle. So, thanks, buddy, I'm still glad you died.
I know LOAF suffered incredibly over all this for many years. He felt bad about going against Eagle the minute the asshole started this mess... and I know what he won't want anyone revealing but I will anyway, (because unlike Eagle he'll forgive me): every few months his conscience would bother him so much that he would go to the BeyondIRC to apologize to Eagle and try to talk to his old friend.
Now, he didn't do anything wrong in the first place--Eagle wrongly blamed LOAF and Chris for the whole Neil Young fiasco and never spoke to them again--but he was so haunted by the suggestion that just maybe the whole thing was a misunderstanding that it would eat him up inside. I'd tell him the truth: that it was crap, Eagle was an asshole and he should get on with his life and enjoy what he built... obvious stuff. But he suffered. After he'd go and msg Eagle, we'd hear from whatever two-timer we knew that LOAF's latest IP had been added to the ban list. It absolutely crushed him. I'm sure 'Mr. Howard' enjoyed it.
So here he is being a good person and trying to treat the man who made him suffer all that time with some dignity in spite of the nothing Eagle ever did for him... all while he's going through some personal crisises that we won't talk about... and we've got a bunch of old timey jerks taking advantage of the situation for their own messages? Please. Hellcat V thinks we should all work together? Funny, that's the opposite of Eagle's message. Akkbar just happened to be reading the CIC for the first time in years? I've got a bridge for sale and I'll tell you where to shove it. If you're not a regular poster, you can shove it - I don't know you and I like you exactly as much.
So I'm going to be as honest as possible because I know my friends - the people who made this brilliant community - will appreciate it. Eagle shouldn't be remembered. He was a stupid made up character, a 2D image who would turn and bite you if you fell out of line. If you weren't a perfect little soldier. I experienced it and people who I like far more than myself experienced it a lot worse. If there's a hell to go to, I know they have a special place reserved.